Saturday, April 15, 2006

Women Suck

And I hate the fact that I'm one of them.

We're stupid. Emotional. And we all deserve to be tortured. I don't know what the point of women's life is. We're so fucking stupid we hurt ourselves time and time again, and let other hurt us too... Knowing that's all that's going to come out of it; we still walk ahead and welcome it.

I'd love to say this were the last fucking time. But it'd be the same lie I've told time and time again when it comes to this man. I so wish it were the truth.

He fucked the prostitute. And he fucked the Saudi/Yemini one too. And I don't give a shit, because we weren't together. But he fucking lied about it. He made me stupid. And I defended his ass in the comments on the last fucking post; based on that stupidity.

You all were right. He's trash. I'm filth for putting up with it. And we probably both fucking deserve one another.

Women deserve to be fucked over. If no one were out to do it, we'd do it to ourselves.

13 Comments:

Blogger Emirati said...

No offense meant,

But you made some pretty fucked up descisions in life. Everyone fucks up, but only the people who allow themselves to suffer, suffer.

A possible time to sit somewhere quiet, with a cup of tea relax and contemplate what you plan to do with your life.

Otherwise youll drive yourself more insane than you already are.

7:56 PM, April 15, 2006  
Blogger Tainted Female said...

No offense taken.

However, I tend to disagree with this statement:

'but only the people who allow themselves to suffer, suffer.'

You see, I'm Bipolar. It's an illness. Chemical illness, actually brought on by childhood stress (due to external factors I had no control over), which induced excess adrenalin for an extended period of time; which then killed off a little chemical called Seroxin and my brains ability to produce the same. That little chemical is responsible for all sorts of things, from rational thinking, to sleeping abilities to emotional control. It's not my choice to do this to myself.

It is my choice to be honest about what I've been through, what I'm going through and how I'm feeling, so that others in my situation know they’re not alone.

Thanks for popping in and sharing your thoughts on this one.

8:09 PM, April 15, 2006  
Blogger Emirati said...

Several of my friends have had bipolar disorder. With the proper psychiatric help, you can live a normal happy life (if you choose to).

Like I said, people who choose to let themselves suffer, suffer.

8:20 PM, April 15, 2006  
Blogger Tainted Female said...

Emirati,

You don't have an email linked. Or a way I can discuss this with you in private.

I have spent more than 7 years now getting psychiatric help. Unfortunately the doctors I saw in this country used me as a medicine guinea-pig which resulted in me pretty much overdosing on a combination of prescribed pills; and chopping myself up.

Forgive me for fearing these sorts of medications now and those in this medical profession, and deciding to fight it on my own.

I’d rather be a little twisted while making a few mistakes, than to wake up in a pool of blood again, or even better not wake up at all.

It’s not a choice hun. I choose life; no matter how fucked it might get for me.

Again, thank you for sharing your thoughts. I appreciate your concern.

8:25 PM, April 15, 2006  
Blogger Tainted Female said...

May God bless you, and keep you free from this sort of thing Emirati, even if that means you'll always think suffering is in complete control of the tortured.

8:27 PM, April 15, 2006  
Blogger Blogger said...

tainted my suggestion is you should try to think less about your Bipolar disorder ... or it will be worse. Maybe this blog is a good way for you to feel better
Did you try with qur'an? Listening to qur'an? I know it might sound a muttawah thing but it might help you. think of it
and nshallah u'll feel better

10:26 PM, April 15, 2006  
Blogger adevents said...

TF, the post before this one was posted 3:40 PM, April 15, 2006
And this post was 6:28 PM the same day, just wondering how u discovered that he was lying in about less than 3 hours??

9:11 AM, April 16, 2006  
Blogger Emirati said...

Tainted, my suggestions were in the interest of the well being of your son. Not yours.

5:02 PM, April 16, 2006  
Blogger flamin said...

Emirati:

I have been noticing your comments and now I'm forced to comment.

Nobody understands or knows their problems/issues better than themselves. I have been through bi-polar too, but on a very basic level compared to Tainted. It's something that doesn't always go away completely. I still have days or random nights when things return. But it doesn't mean I 'choose' for them to return.

You are looking at the issue from a theoretical perspective. It's theory to say that people always have choices. Yes, sure they do. But that's not the main thing. The main thing is whether the choice is feasible or not and many times, the choices are not feasible.

You're looking at the issue from a distant perspective; based on what you know in theory or maybe, seen among few friends. Have you witnessed the depths of depression of a bi-polar person?

The main reason behind this comment is to let you know that your words might have a negative on people who read your reply. Be a little more sensitive. You never really know who you hurt (unintentionally maybe) with your words.

Everyone has issues and mostly, they are a lot different than yours. You might know a bit about it, but not all.

We all make fucked up decisions, the least we can do is admit responsibility for our own decisions. Nobody has a perfect life. I'm not sure if you do.

10:26 PM, April 16, 2006  
Blogger Emirati said...

md,

Ive taken psych courses before and have a very good friend who is a psychiatrist. I'll quote him from a phone call a few hours ago..

"With the proper treatment and follow up, if someone is motivated to go through it, even people with the severest forms of bipolar can live full and happy lives"

Understanding people is great. Understanding why they wont do anything about their situation isnt. My comment was directed at tainted, anyone besides her offended can find a nice cliff to practice arm flapping off of.

11:46 PM, April 16, 2006  
Blogger flamin said...

Never mind Emirati. Maybe you should just stop visiting blogs that don't make sense to you.

11:57 PM, April 16, 2006  
Blogger Harsha said...

I think 'Emarati' is being mixed for 'Emaraty'

9:17 AM, April 17, 2006  
Blogger Tainted Female said...

Adevents,

He claimed at that time he couldn’t keep it in anymore. ‘Confessed’ through text messages. Unbelievably enough though, there is one more twist to this story… thus the reason I wasn’t around yesterday. I’ll be telling it shortly.

:)

Balushi,

You have a lot of sex with a lot of women. I hope you’re protecting yourself and them from disease.

MD,

My mamma always said, ‘You can lead a horse to water, but can’t force him to drink.”

Harsha,

I remember seeing a post by Emirati in the Community blog, showing shame for the likes for Emiraty taking on a similar nick. I tend to feel that shame was taken by the wrong end of the stick in this case.

9:27 AM, April 17, 2006  

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